Well, we'll try this again... I wrote all this out once, it's never as good the second time around.
I've been a pretty decent guy my whole life I think. I'm sure that 99% of the people who have met me and know me will tell you that I'm one of the nicest guys they know.
When I'm up, I try to share the wealth. I try to help people all that I can with out even being asked. In years past when things were going well, I've done things like:
* Paid car payments someone else
* Paid rent for other people
* Paid for several expensive car repair bills
* Bought food for people (families) to make sure that they would be able to eat.
* Paid bills (phone, electric, etc) for other people.
Since I've always worked the graveyard shift, if it snows during the night, I always brush off all the neighbor's cars. Not just the ones I like, not just the couple of attractive chicks, but ALL of them. The guys, the crazy screaming lady, the punk kids on the floor above, ALL of them. I'm usually done and in the house by the time they come out, some of them know it's me, they say thanks, most don't even know who does it - or at least I don't care to make it known that it's me. I don't care. It's just a nice thing to do, hopefully it'll start their day out better since I know seeing the snow and having to drive in it kinda sucks. If they say thanks, they say thanks, if not, no big deal. I do the same for my wife's co-workers when it snows.
My wife and I made a HUGE turkey dinner for some of our neighbors because we knew that they had nothing to eat. They were having a hard time. I do things like that all the time.
I don't do things like that to "get back" or to make people feel like they owe me one. MOST of the things I do, I do as anonymously as possible. I don't like the whole make a scene and all that stuff.
I've always done all I can to make sure I'm not cheating someone or doing something to put someone else down. I'm sure at some point in my life, I've probably said or done some things I shouldn't have, but certainly not intentionally, not sober and definitely definitely definitely not often.
So anyway, I was out of work for a couple of months. I left a job that was just really dragging me down. It used to be an okay place, but every day I went in, it was a little worse and a little worse. Anyway, after I left there, I put my faith into an aquaintance (considered him a friend until this event) that said he would have a REALLY good paying job for me. He said to just relax and not to worry about it, he'd take care of it. He said it'd take a couple of weeks, but it was a "FOR SURE" thing. After a whole month, I finally gave up on that idea and went out to find something myself. HOLY CRAP!!! What's with the job market here? Have the Mexicans really taken ALL of the jobs around here? It took another month to find the job I'm at yet and that's basically labor with labor wages. It's a little better than that, but certainly not great pay and not the coolest job. It's temporary at that - another blog on that set or crap some other time.
Anyway... where was I? Oh yeah, so all the things that I've done is not that I'm "giving to get". I do the things I do because that's the way that I would like for people to treat me and each other. If we all worried about each other a little more and ourselves a little less, it may end up being a better place after all.
Sharing a car is a whole other rant, but the sort version is for Heaven's sake, would it kill people to give someone else a ride sometimes - especially when they take a ride home REGULARLY?!?!?
So for a long time, my wife and I have been sharing a car. Two car payments does not equal having two cars that runs. One of our cars has not been running for quite some time. I just got it back (for the 3rd time now I think) a couple of days ago. I put it in the shop a few years ago - LOOOOONG story. $6 grand later, I have a car that's been violated, scratched, broke into, things don't fit together right any more. It doesn't pass emmissions testing and doesn't really run all that great to begin with. I've tried to talk to him a bit to express my dis-satisfaction about everything, but get the basic "so" attitude from him. People tell me I could get a lawyer, but I really don't think I could get enough out of it to make it worth the while of dealing with that stuff. At the end of the day, it probably wouldn't work out to my advantage since it was in his shop for almost 4 years and I wasn't charged a shop storage fee or anything. It's a long long story.
So anyway, being out of work for a few months is hell on your finances. I'm behind on everything, I've never received so many calls as I do lately. If you ever feel like no one cares if you're alive or not, just miss a mortgage or a car payment or two.... you'll become quite popular and receive many phone calls several times a day then.
So where am I going with all this? If Karma is a real thing, then what the hell did I do to deserve to find myself in the pile of crap I seem to have found myself into? What seriously did I do to anyone to deserve that, and when do I start getting something back on the other Karma points for the decent things I've done through out the years?
I guess I'm just whining and ranting, but guess what... I've listened to everyone else for years and years, it's MY TURN!
I do have some things going for me. I have a wonderful wife. I have a great dog. I've got a roof over my head (for now). I've got a job and I've got a car (for now) to share to help me to get to that temporary job.
When does it get better?!?! When does the crap end? If this is really how life is supposed to be, then I don't see the point in really just going on to have to deal with more of it.
Thanks for reading my rant...
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